Big Wide World

i know that it was my own dumbass-ness (shush) that made this situation happen, but it still hurts. i heard him use the word like 3 years ago, and said it wasn't a real word. did i bother to check? NO-OO. did my lazyass just assume he was wrong? YESSS. and every time for the last 3 years i've been saying "its still not a real word", and now, three years later, i have to admit that i was wrong, for all this time, and the word does exist. ouch. though, um, it exists in the urban dictionary, so i'm only partly wrong, cause, well, it's not a real dictionary. ha ha. (ego problems much?) but at least i can admit i'm wrong. and, i knew that he would never check it in a dictionary either, so when i found out that it did exist, i could have just "pretended" (read lied) that it wasn't a real word. see, i'm not that evil. i told him it was a real word, against my better judgment, cause i know he'll make me pay for it, BIGTIME.

ok, next topic. i was watching national geographic today, and they did a show on spiders. since i have a HUGE fear of spiders (yeah so i'm not very original-bite me), i decided to force myself to watch it. its that whole "conquer your fears" nonsense. not like it works. only made me really itchy (that's what seeing spiders does for me, stange isn't it?). ok, but i did learn something. men are lucky that we aren't like spiders. and women, here's what i learned. men get away with treating us the way they do b/c we don't kill them after sex. that's right ladies, be like the red-back spider. ok, obviously i'm not being serious. but honestly, being a male spiders sucks. they get eaten or killed by their female lovers. one spider even flips up his abdomin while he's implanting his seed so that the female can eat it for nutrients to help the eggs grow. um, yeah, are you listening dead-beat fathers? i'm not saying you have to offer your bottom half for mothers to eat, but would it kill you to just sacrifice a little?